beforethedarkness | Voicemail (2013 Run)

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Voicemail (2013 Run)

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I can't afford to work on it.

[Sigh...]

... Can't afford to risk it again.

I don't really get why not. This is the perfect place to at least try. You won't lose anyone.

You already know why not.

It was the person I loved and trusted more the most that caused me the most pain - that betrayed me.

I'm not strong enough to trust anyone again after that.

... Besides, you're wrong. I've already lost a few people here.

Edited 2013-03-18 03:27 (UTC)

Totally feeling the love right now...

[ are you really implying that Sora is not trustable? ]

And who?

[Not answering that. His big brother was the best person ever and if he turned out bad there's no telling with anyone else okay. :'|]

... Roxas.

Chi.

[His voice gets quieter when the last one comes out.]

Kairi.

They're not exactly gone, you know...

They're not here anymore.

[Another sigh and he's withdrawing even more, not that Sora can tell.]

...

Uh, Sasuke?

Yeah, they kinda are. Sure, it's not a physical thing. But you have memories of them. Those memories are not going to leave you any time soon.

[ well, at least not here, right? ]

You're still connected to them. Just like me.

I don't want to remember. It only causes...

[Pausing.]

... It only slows me down. Makes me weaker.

See... That's where you're really, really wrong.

Memories, the good ones and the bad ones, are important. They make us into who we are. Without them, you might as well be just a shell walking around. I've seen people like that and any one of them could tell you that all they wanted is what you're taking for granted right now.

Everything and every person that we've ever met gives us strength. It always has for me because it tells me what's at stake. I can't give up because they need me just like I need them.

See... When I think about it, you're not throwing memories away... You're only choosing to remember and hold onto what you want.

It's like you're not even completely accepting yourself as a person, only want you want to see or be.

[Something's just a little shaky in his tone.]

They don't need me. And... All I ever feel from it is pain. I get betrayed. They leave. They die. They don't want me. It always ends and... I'm always left alone, in the end.

I don't want to try anymore, Sora.

I dunno about that.

Pretty sure that I told you that I'd go with you. You don't need to be alone and I know that I kinda would like to have you around still. I always need my friends and you are my friend. So that means I need you too.

You just got to accept that.

I don't know if you'll go too.

I... I don't want to be hurt anymore... But that's all that ever happens. It never changes.

Man, you're kinda thick.

Even if I go, that doesn't mean I'm gone. A part of me will always be with you, just like you'll always be with me. That's how this thing works.

You'll never be alone, Sasuke. And we'll always be friends. That's a forever thing.

. . .

I don't know if I can believe in that.

[Another shaky sigh.]

Edited 2013-03-25 01:39 (UTC)

Would I tell you something that's not true?

Not on purpose.

I'm gonna have to use an example, huh?

[He doesn't answer or even say anything else. It's not unreasonable to think that he's hung up, although the gear is still in fact connected.]

Just going to take that silence as a yes...

Did you know that while I was asleep for a year, none of my friends even knew I existed?

... No.

It's true! When I woke up and got to Radiant Garden, they told me.

But that's just it. When I woke up again? They remembered. And they never stopped being my friends just because they forgot.

So, a heart never really forgets anything. It's still there, deep down.

Pfft. Riku and I were just about enemies for a while and he still ended up saving me. Just look at us. We're still best friends even after all that.

Axel? He pretty much kidnapped Kairi once. Still saved me. Twice. Doesn't stop him from being my friend now either. If he was in trouble, I'd be there to help him like any one else.

What I guess I'm really trying to say is... If I tell you that you're my friend and that I'll never stop being your friend, then that's true. Nothing you do will change that. Even if you don't believe me or don't trust me, it doesn't matter. You'll always be my friend and I feel a little stronger just knowing that.

...

There are things I don't want my heart to remember. Ever.

I can understand some of that. Doesn't mean that you should forget it either. It's like I said... Your memories make up who you are, good or bad.

You can't appreciate the good times without the bad.

[Silence again, and he fails to answer Sora completely then.]

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