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15th Tomoe || Video, Action for Goldenrod City

[A tired and quite irritated Sasuke is the first thing that shows up on the gear, and in the background behind him is Obito, Tenten, and Evan. It's obvious that they're outside in Goldenrod City, and although Sasuke looks a little worse for wear he's much better than he was after the Valentine's Attack was done.

Even if he still has bandages over burns and puncture marks and his right arm is still in a cast.]

If I don't answer a message the first time, leaving twenty more isn't going to make me answer any faster. I just went through 174 messages on my gear.

[A heavy sigh, and he shakes his head.]

I was in Ilex forest trying to catch some pokémon. I wanted to do it alone. That's all there is to it.

[Shutting off the video, because irritation is at maximum. He's going to go ~~make Whitney cry~~ get the Plain Badge now, if only because he never wants to be made that weak and vulnerable ever again.]

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[He looks away from the feed then, and it looks like the area around his eye is bruising when it wasn't before. At this point he's also inside a hotel room, having wanted to get away from everyone else for a while. At least he told everyone else where he wanted to go this time.]

... I don't want anyone else caught up in my business. It's trusted people who have the most power to hurt and destroy others, and I don't want anyone else like that in my life.

[In a hotel with a forming black eye...whoever decked this kid clearly didn't get him hard enough.]

So you just don't trust anyone at all? Cut yourself off from everyone aroud you so you can't get hurt? [a snort.] That's a dumb way to live. People need people, no matter how much they try to avoid them.

...

It's because of someone I trusted that I'm alone. I won't make the same mistake again.

I have to be strong alone.

[Sadly it's not that easy to get someone off of something they've been obsessed with for such a long time.]

[This face.] And how old were you when that happened? Six? [headshake. It's just a guess but it matters little.] That wasn't your mistake. No kid at that age can make a decision that ends like that.

... Seven. Almost eight.

[Same difference.] You're supposed to trust the people around you at that age. You couldn't have known they'd turn on you.

[Has anybody ever told him this? or has he spent the past four to five years thinking that?]

I should have known, though.

[He sighs, his head bowing more as the memories come back. So that would be him having been left to think this all that time, Lightning.]

[Yeah, she got that part. If she was the type, she'd be facepalming so hard right now. As it is, she's going to sigh and try a different approach.]

Fine. You want to keep thinking that way? Answer me this: how could you have known? Seven year olds don't notice everything, Sasuke, and even if you'd noticed something wasn't right, what could you have done to stop them?

Edited 2013-02-25 23:41 (UTC)

He would have noticed.

[It was a soft mumble, and he looked more away from the camera. It was his fault to begin with, but if he hadn't, he would have noticed...]

...

[Soft but still audible. Etro dammit boy does she have to throw you off a ledge to drive her points home?!]

And let me guess. He was older than you? [flat look] You can't blame yourself for something that you didn't do, Sasuke.

At my age, he would have.

[He shakes his head.]

I didn't act. I didn't do anything but beg for my life back then.

You're not him. Did nobody ever tell you that people different react differently?

[The beg for my life throws her off a little, though. Seven years old and threatened with death? Damn, kid...]

You just said you were seven. Unless you'd been training since before you could hold your head up on your own, what could you have done besides that?

I've been training since I was old enough to start training. It was never enough...

[Again he shakes his head, although whether it's answering her question or because of something else is debatable.]

I have to get stronger. To surpass him.

[Okay, that's it. This kid's beating around the bush and she's too frustrated to keep calm anymore. No more Miss Nice Lightning.]

And what good is that going to do you? It's not going to undo whatever the hell it is he did, and trying to take revenge isn't going to do that, either. You have to let it go.

I know it won't bring them back.

[Bowing his head low enough for his head to cover his eyes right about now. Lightning might or might not recognize it as him finally letting himself be vulnerable, if only briefly.]

Vengeance is still all I have left. That man... Took everything from me. That's why I have to get strong; to kill him. And I have to do it alone.

[She recognizes it as something akin to vulnerability, at least. Her tone doesn't soften though, and she presses forward.]

Vengeance won't solve anything, and when it's over all you're going to feel is empty. [stern look.] You still have your life, Sasuke, regardless of losing everything. Make something of yourself instead of wasting your life on petty revenge.

It isn't petty.

[He knows that it's not going to bring anyone back, or make him feel good. He's heard all of this before, and he isn't any more likely to really take it to heart now.]

He destroyed everything and everyone. He... Betrayed everyone. Betrayed me. I can't let him live.

I wasn't able to do anything that night. I can't fail like that again.

[Two steps away from a facepalm. She understands a stark loss--admittedly not on the scale Sasuke's referring to, but understands it nonetheless. All this is going to do is get him killed]

Alright, so tell me what killing him's going to do. It won't bring them back, it won't make you feel any better, and considering he let you live it sounds like he wants someone to kill him. Why give him that? Why give the guy who tore your life apart what he wants?

[Making no comment about how a seven year old failed against someone older. of course that was going to happen--what were they teaching him?!]

[Probably better that she doesn't know that the guy who committed mass genocide was only thirteen at the time, then.

He's shaking his head, his good hand rising to grip at his bangs as he just tries to get a grip.]

He... It was to test his strength. I wasn't worth killing. He left me alive in cowardice.

Killing him avenges the dead. Lets them rest.

[It doesn't matter what else the future holds, not if that man's death is in it.]

[Probably not, no. A world that teaches thirteen year olds to kill people on that scale...and then doesn't give the survivor the care that he needs? Here she thought Cocoon sucked.]

And do you really think that's what they want? The dead don't care, Sasuke. There's nothing they can do to change anything. You need to focus on the living, not on killing someone else. One more death isn't going to change anything, no matter why he left you alive.

Am I supposed to do nothing for my clan? My family?

[Of course Lightning doesn't understand. He's not sure he wants her to, either. It's getting harder for him to speak as he gets more and more consumed within his own turmoil, further into the sadness and pain that night caused him.]

You're supposed to live. [No, she doesn't get it. Can't get it. She only lost her parents but you can't kill disease. And Serah...she hasn't thought about that. But she knows revenge won't do any good. Think about what they'd want for you, not for themselves. If they were your family they'd want you to live your life, Sasuke. Not throw it away on revenge they can't even benefit from.

I can't let it go.

[He's shaking more now and almost hiding when he speaks again, making it just a little harder to hear. At least the pokégear has a really good microphone or it might not have picked up what he's saying.]

The one who murdered them all... My aunts, uncles, cousins, parents... The person I loved and trusted more than anyone else before that night... He's my older brother.

[No reply. If this wasn't video and that stunned face was filling the screen, it wouldn't be a stretch to think she'd hung up. For someone like Lightning, someone who values her own family above anything else...to hear something like that might as well have sucker punched her.

Especially given the way he's acting. What little she knows about Sasuke tells her he's not a very good actor and that he's...probably telling the truth. Oh, Etro...]

And killing him alone is your only option? If he managed to take everyone out, he's not going to be easy to take down. You have to know that.

[If it's any consolation, her tone has softened a fair bit. It's not pitying, though. She had enough of that on her own back then, too.]

I know it's not going to be easy. He was the Uchiha prodigy - the best of the best in our clan, and better than anyone before him. I'm the only one left alive who can possibly have the strength to match him, and that's what I have to work towards. Why I have to be stronger.

He killed everyone else who could have done the same. When I face him, I'm going to be alone.

[The softer tone is at least a little appreciated - it doesn't feel like he's under attack anymore.]

I know it's revenge. I know it won't bring anyone back or fix anything. But it's something I have to do.

And... Until then... I don't want to gain -- or lose -- anyone else.

[He was doing okay with the gaining until the losing started, really. =/]

Edited (How did I think this post had proper grammar at all.) 2013-02-27 03:08 (UTC)

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