I don't know. But I do know that what he told me that night was a lie.
[Finally he lifts his head, though barely, to look at the sand. His arms are still resting on his knees, and his expression can only be described as pensive when he speaks again.]
That night, he told me I wasn't strong enough to kill - that I should run, and live as a coward. But... There were elderly and untrained civilians that were part of our clan and died that night, too.
The eyes he had then - mangenkyo - can only be obtained by suffering the death of one of the people closest to you. If he didn't care at all, he wouldn't have gotten those eyes. And...
[He has to take a breath there, his hand going to his hair to grip at the bangs before he finally finds the courage to continue again.]
Back then, I was in too much pain and hated him so much to really notice it at first, but... I was always alone. No one tried to help or even came close to me after it happened. Not my classmates, not the teachers, none of the adults in the village... No one.
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[Finally he lifts his head, though barely, to look at the sand. His arms are still resting on his knees, and his expression can only be described as pensive when he speaks again.]
That night, he told me I wasn't strong enough to kill - that I should run, and live as a coward. But... There were elderly and untrained civilians that were part of our clan and died that night, too.
The eyes he had then - mangenkyo - can only be obtained by suffering the death of one of the people closest to you. If he didn't care at all, he wouldn't have gotten those eyes. And...
[He has to take a breath there, his hand going to his hair to grip at the bangs before he finally finds the courage to continue again.]
Back then, I was in too much pain and hated him so much to really notice it at first, but... I was always alone. No one tried to help or even came close to me after it happened. Not my classmates, not the teachers, none of the adults in the village... No one.